Monday Funday

What would we do without rainstick!? She loves this toy.
Im going to try to post a post Madie is in foul mood right now..was screaming I assume tired but ya never know with my girl.

SOme cute pictures from the other day it was a gorgeous and windy outside a small break from the rain we have been having

All is "going" Madie is in her last week of Kindergarten this week! Is crazy! I hope that she will begin her new school year with her new Crusier stroller I keep my fingers crossed.! Sweet Baby girl.
Fathers Day was good. We all spent the day together and BBQed it was really nice to be together as team even for a day.. WARM day but better than the rain! (although just hearing in radio that more rain and 80's are coming..) I dunno....sigh. I guess that's all today. Ill blog over weekend when I am more focused. SO MUCH on my mind and Im just exhausted.

My Little Family

This is Maisy. Lazy Maisy. My new shelter kitty. We are still warming up to each other its been a few weeks now. This is just day 4 with her and she was all about attention. She is by no means the explorative trouble maker that Magic and I tell ya I miss that a lot....Magic was all about tearin it up! Its still so hard to believe that she is gone. Maisy is working on her coming downstairs skills right now... she was making a home out of madies old changing table but I put an end to that I don't like her on that stuff... she cant hibernate upstairs all the time either. lol Oh silly Maisy the 6 year old shelter kitty.

My little family hangs on.. we have not been given a choice in the matter.. Madie continues to be the awesome cutie that she is and there are still times when we are two grumpy sleepy heads but we manage somehow. She is getting heavy and I am uncertain how I am going to manage that when she gets older...just getting her around or bathing her or changing her or getting her in and out of car... Its scary. Its not fair. But as the saying goes "shit happens" I tried. I cried. I said my peace. I miss a lot of things. I am not going to turn this post into big sob story......

ANYHOOOOOOO
Ive been trying to spruce things up around here and getting quite a little garden going...in a week or so maybe Ill go get some little inexpensive flowers or whatever.. but for now I am trying my hand at tomatoes peppers and green beans! I am not good at this sort of thing but I enjoy it. Gardening can be an expensive hobby! lol
Had Madies PPT which we all know can be mild to moderately depressing but nonetheless we had it... School wants to put her in the 1st grade full days of school. I am a little paniced about that. Its a long day. I have to figure out her meals for the day with this stinkin diet as well making her whatever I can make her the day before as the bus comes at 815 and I am NOT a morning person... Yes 815...boo hoo..lol
I wonder sometimes if there is a better school for my Madie...a school that can deal more with kids like madie..is it better to have her along side her normal peers with a special teacher by her side or better to have her in a school that more specializes... Its a tough call I just want to see Madie thrive. I feel as if I have the world on my plate with this kid. What is the right thing to do? I will see what they have for her next year at her school and take it from there I suppose. I really cant handle looking for a new school let alone a new place that would be close to that school right now. too much.
I am also trying very poorly to get Madie to eat some new foods... I have to get the grocery store at some point and get some stuff to mush up for her.. I have NO CLUE how I am going to even begin to feed this kid real food right now... adding to my plate. GAH.


THIS will HOPEFULLY with a lot of prayer and kissin butt to insurance company Madies new ride. It will be in Purple. I am pretty excited to get it if we do! It will JUST make it in the trunk of the Civic but better than taking the Kimba Spring into two pices and stuffing it in the trunk... boo. SOMEDAY I would LOVE an SUV with a good size storage in the back to get all her stuff inside with ease. But for now the Civic runs and the stroller will FIT! (hopefully. lol) Its a nice one and I feel like I can use it as an every day stroller not just a "wheelchair" for school stuff..
I will get a tray for it as well for school and the adjustable handle bar is so great for tall people like mom and dad and short people like madies school friends who like to help push. :) It will also harness in the bus.
Ok...have to think for a moment on other news....
Summer school will begin in July and go till August 8. then I hope its off to the beach for some relaxin and some beach fun. Oh and we all love getting the small pool out and sitting under the shade tree.
Well hope everyone is well and enjoying the warmer days. Its been raining here and supposed to for memorial day weekend but its not SNOW!

me.(and my little family)X0

Sadness will turn to Joy.....someday.

I cant describe the sadness I felt when I saw my beloved Magic Kitty laying in the grass passed away... a kind neighbor called and said he had found Magic and I ran over quickly to see for myself.... It was her. Her little body was just laying in the pouring rain. I put my hand on her and told her she was okay and that I would take care of her now... then I cried my eyes out. Oh sweet kitty... 12 years old died doing what she loved exploring. I hope she was not killed by someone... she did not look torn up in any way... Boy did I cry. She was such a fresh kitty..always getting into this and that and knocking over things and ONLY throwing up on my favorite rug...She was always there to keep me warm when I had the blanket over me and always there when her favorite spaghetti sauce was cooking ready to get on the counter and drive me crazy.. I felt like she pooped in her box a million times a day! LOL She has been to the vet numerous times after fights with small animals and always made it thru. When she slipped out my porch that Tuesday afternoon I had no doubt that she would be back. She always came back. After a couple days I began to leave food out but that was not good since there are alot of cats out there not to mention racoons or whatnot. yuck. After a week I put up fliers around my neighborhood and a week later someone had found her. What could have happened? I will never know. Oh sweet Kitty... I cried alot. I had some epic sadness... not just for my kitty but for alot of things.... I missed my house, I missed my Miles, I missed my cat, I missed small things like my front porch! I was a mess... I am not so much a mess now but I still miss those things terribly... nothing I can do. Madie and I are good. We are a team. We are US. With or without these things we HAVE TO CARRY ON.... Love Love and oh yes MORE love. And SO begins Madies spring break this coming week and I plan on just getting the f outta dodge for a little while and probably taking madie to the shore for the week. Its alot of packing for a week but I just NEED the beach.... I feel so sad. I wish I lived on the beach really I do... Its so relaxing. Then again what if a storm wipes out my tiney shack that I can only afford...LOL maybe a few blocks away.....yea. The weather is supposed to be in the high 60's this week...spring is trying its darndest to come out and play but its been pretty bad... winter cold just wont quit. comes and goes. HEre are some pictures from the last pretty warm day we had. It was HEAVEN. I actually think its kinda cool that I have a clothes line. The blankets smelled SO YUM after that day drying in the sunshine. Madie and I just hung out side and the breeze was so warm :) she loves the breeze. OH and all went well in HArtford last week too... Blood work was hardest part for Madie but she was an alert happy kid for the doctor for the first time in forever..lol I always tell her that Dr D does not have anything that hurts...lol she tends to not get it. Diet will stay same for now.. we will be trying to add in some small meals for her pure' mooooosh I am going to try to make some stuff and freeze it for now. I cannot say how I am going to even start...I think I have tried more times than I can count in the past only to be frustrated and just stop trying... I hope everyone is well and I guess I am done rambling.I hate to end abruptly...its getting to be past 6 and tub time is needed for this little booger. I hope to soon get another kitty for my small family soon...I met one named "courage" how can I not take him! At same time I dont think I am ready to love another kitty yet.... :( I will take some pictures of madie and the world around this week and explode my next post with pictures. :) Ill blog later in week maybe.;) Me.& Madie.xo

Kitties and Life.

Not much going on in Mama and Madies world these days.... Meeting with Nutitionist in Hartford on Wed to go over Keto Diet and also meet with Neuro. These appointments kinda become mundane... I mean we go in and they say ok her seizures are still this many and she is still growing and she is still on depakote and she is still on diet. Not really any advancements.. she is a fussy eater. I really dont know what next step is she cant stay on this nasty ketocal forever!? Its a tough call. and still the same amount of seizures per month.. and ALWAYS on the 5th of every month... that is the only pattern I have seen for months and months... I get anxious always around that time. :( My Beloved Kitty Ran away last week.... it will be 2 weeks come this Tuesday. She simply slipped out my porch. :( I am so worried about her and just pray that if she did die she went to kitty heaven without too much pain.... and if she is lost to help her find her way back home...and if she is trapped someplace that someone finds her... :( She was a pesky kitty alllllways getting into something... Maybe I was selfish and taking her to new apt... maybe I shoulda just left her with Miles.... just for now anyways..till I live in a place that actually is more kitty friendly.. there are too too many cats out there. Perhaps she was scooped up by a hoarder? I hate to think she is dead.. but its been a long time and she has only been away two nights TOPS in the past....:( Please just say a kitty prayer. Just a little one for Magic. Madie and I are Ok. I have my days. I still very much miss my old home... I am working on trying to grow some Herbs and some flowers for spring and trying to look forward to the warmer days. I look forward to long skirts and sandals... My head just wizzes alot... hard to sleep and stay focused. I just really hope that all this is worth it in the end... this new life... I dunno. ONE day at a time. all I can do is keep on doing what I am doing.My place is comming along slowly.. my awesome mother in law gave me a futon couch and a coffee table which is great! I have passed out on the futon about 4 times already its so comfy! who wudda thunk!? Madie is well and very loved by SO MANY and so many just want to see the best come out of all this.. :( Its been hard. I miss silly lazy "family days"..the three of us laughing and being together...feeling love and being safe... even if we just sat around all day and watched movies or went to target or whatever... it was nice... maybe I took it for granted sometimes and I will forever regret that. Spring is in the air.. Wed is supposed to be near 70 here in CT USA... its still in the 50's and driving me crazy that I still cant really open my windows yet without being chilly. Snow is in the past for now and sunshine has slowly replaced the gray days outside. It seriously just down poured for like a minute! Is that a sign the gods are watching? I sure have been feeling all my Angels watching over me lately... hard to explain but when I cry they hold me up somehow.. I guess I am just rambles now. Time to get comfy with Madie and countdown to bedtime I suppose. Hope everyone is feeling well we had house of sickies over her for awhile and I think all noses are finally clearing up. I have to laugh at Miles who graciously gave me some sudafed that expired two years ago... sigh. I meant GO BUY some for me silly. Hugs. and Hugs. you know who who you are. lol Me.