Just a little ramble :)

These pics were taken tonight after I had gotten home from work and fed and baithed her and she was all game for laying on mama's bed..even gave me some giggles.. she spent the day at Grandmas house ..Is there something in the water at grammys house??

This morning was hectic...I woke at about 7:12 to be exact..having no clue where I was...madie almost alllways gets us up at 6-63o always! today was an exception...
I knew I had to get Madie fed, changed out of her jammys and get her bag packed and get myself fed and showered ...and out the door at 8.
Well I get her fed and changed and she has a bomb of a seizure on her changing table putting her in a cranky sleepy mood....
It will be 2 weeks on B6 on thursday...and I am already loosing faith in it...BUT I neeeeed to give it 2-3 weeks....how many of us have patience at this point?? hmmmmm I see no hands...
I knew I had to let her be and get myslef ready for work and folks..it was killing me that I was not going to see her all day.. I was getting that compleatly helpless feeling in my gut that makes me cry...I did NOT need that feeling at the moment! When I got all of madie in the car I come to find the road to get to Grandmas house is closed...eh? for what I dunno...So it takes me 30 minues to drive a normally less than 10 min ride...instantly running late...gah!
Now I live in the land of Scenic roads and Historical towns...Us and our little PUD community here..that is "Planned Unit Development" are in the middle of all that country and just minutes down the road that used to be pretty dead about 10 years ago has turned into a compleate shopping mecca..the old golf course was a gold mine!! When Shaws and kohls moved in! ohhhh boy!
SO anyooooooo I was taking what seemed forever to get to my job this AM and I had to quickly drop off my sleepy girl to grandmas and quickly explain to give her her vitamin at 11am and I was out! driving like a bat out of hell...for what? I dunno.... stupid job. I was teary leaving her this AM...feeling like I neeed to be with her...
Work asked me if I was able to take on Wed night I accepted.....thinking that I just neeeded the money...
gah!
Do you just get to a point where you feel like mama needs a time for herself?? For me its a hair apt....MY HAIR!! oh man! Its SO long and half brown and half highlights..and my eyebrows? Oh gosh...a waxing nightmare!! I am a mess. At least I feel like one at times..I have this horrible nervous habbit that I literally pull my eyebrows out...I pick at them and pull them...and lately that habbit has been bad...resurfacing.... my mother did the SAME thing....
I go to this amazing spa place where my gay hair dresser Robert is the ONLY person I will let touch my hair! lol.... you know those gay guys! lol!!
Well anyhoo work was somewhat busy and 430 could not come soon enough... AS ALWAYS I get to grandmas house and Madie is happy as a clam the family dog is laying nearby but not t0o close almost knowing that madie needs to be protected...and madie is just rolling on her blanket hanging out....LOl...
I worry TOO Much!!
I stole a few cookies from the pantry and gaithered madies things and went home...and here I am.
I cannot explain how great the support network is..the moms going thru the same thing as I...all the drugs and seizures and drugs and seizures...and drugs....oh man...
When is the reunion party girls!!?? We all live so far away but Im tellin ya a big gaithering of all of us meeting face to face...awesome!! Oh and plane tickets are just soooo cheap eh?? man oh man.. I think its so great that we all make friends and update each other on our little ones...
and on that note I am done rambling tonight....
Hugs mamas
:) :)